
John Michael Riva Jr
John Michael Riva Jr. is a writer, director, and photographer based in Los Angeles, CA. He is a screenwriting MFA graduate from the American Film Institute, where his thesis script, FONTANA emerged as a finalist at Final Draft's Big Break contest. His latest short films, PTERRY and DOOMSCROLL won the audience awards for best short film at the Berkshire International Film Festival.
Director's Statement:
This story draws heavily from my experiences growing up trying to understand who I am through loss. It's a theme I've come to love as hard as it is to own. We can't run from it - a natural part of life. However, when we suffer the loss of loved ones that feels sudden, unfair, or sadly intentional - I can't help but feel a sense of devastating stillness, almost like the calm before the storm.
Losing a parent suddenly at a young age rocked my boat. But that was something I was told would happen one day. Losing a family member and a best friend to Suicide - that's something I was not emotionally trained for. Who the hell is?
Of course, there are the infamous five stages of grief. But for me, that hollow ache, the fragmented numbers that dislocated our reality, is what I want to explore—an entity of horror of the unknown that can swallow us whole.
Where do our loved ones go when they are taken from us in such an abrupt manner? How are we supposed to mourn and cherish the ones who decided to leave us? Is there an easy answer to any of this? Of course not. Is it something that will ever be healed? Probably not, but maybe there is a dark beautyl in that? As painful as it is. Accepting the loss, no matter the cause, is tough to cope. In fact I'm still figuring out how.
Navigating the storm of grief and locating your north star, and arriving to your inner peace. That's the journey, at least what I've experienced. Allowing yourself to be set free, free of the weight of the unknowns, maybe the same unknowns that took your loved ones. Oddly, it has been cathartic for my healing process. My goal and hope is that this project can connect with those similarly suffering from those unforeseen threats that can pull us under - a beacon to heed the warning of the impending storms that have yet to hit us.












